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"Everything I Wanted", stylized as "everything i wanted", is a single by Billie Eilish. It was released on November 13th, 2019.[1] On January 23rd, 2020 Billie released a music video for the song.

Background

The song was first mentioned by Billie on her Instagram story on November 6th, 2019, when she stated that she would be releasing a single in the following week to make up for the long wait for her Vanity Fair issue.[2]

On November 10th, 2019, Billie revealed the single's title, release date, and cover art. A day before its release, she teased a 12-second snippet of the track on Instagram.[3]

On November 26th, 2019, Beats by Dre posted a video for the making of the song, partnering with Billie.[4]

Theme

Lyrically, the song describes Billie's experience in the music industry, and how she feels pressured to cater to the demands of her fans. She ponders whether or not she would have chosen to be an artist if she knew about the pros and cons beforehand. It is also a tribute to Billie's brother and collaborator, Finneas O'Connell.[5]

In a interview with Seventeen, Billie stated that the theme was inspired by a dream she had. She stated, "We started writing it because I literally had a dream that I killed myself and nobody cared and all of my best friends and people that I worked with basically came out in public and said, like, "Oh, we never liked her." In the dream, the fans didn’t care. The internet shit on me for killing myself, all this stuff, and it really did mess me up."[6]

Lyrics

[Verse 1]
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
Not what you'd think
And if I'm bein' honest it might've been a nightmare
To anyone who might care
Thought I could fly (fly)
So I stepped off the Golden, mm
Nobody cried (cried)
Nobody even noticed
I saw them standing right there
Kinda thought they might care (might care, might care)

[Pre-Chorus]
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up I see
You with me

[Chorus]
And you say, "As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you"
Don't wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you hear, "They don't deserve you"

[Verse 2]
I tried to scream
But my head was underwater
They called me weak
Like I'm not just somebody's daughter
Coulda been a nightmare
But it felt like they were right there
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
But I don't wanna let anybody know
'Cause everybody wants something from me now
And I don't wanna let 'em down

[Pre-Chorus]
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up I see
You with me

[Chorus]
And you say, "As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you"
Don't wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you hear, "They don't deserve you"

[Outro]
If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?
If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?

Videos

Gallery

Trivia

  • The song's artwork was created by Jason Anderson.[7]
    • It is a painting of the Golden Gate Bridge, which is also mentioned in the song's lyrics.
  • The song was originally titled nightmare.
  • Billie's older brother, Finneas, is featured in the music video, which was released on January 23rd, 2020.
  • The song's music video opens with a message from Billie saying "finneas is my brother and my best friend. no matter the circumstance, we will always have and always will be there for each other."
  • In certain parts of the video, the lights in the background match up with some of the beats in the music. [8]
  • As of February 2020, the song is peaked at number 10 on the Billboard 100 'Top 100' chart.

References

  1. https://twitter.com/billieeilish/status/1193648829460959232
  2. https://www.nme.com/news/music/billie-eilish-releasing-new-songs-xanny-music-video-2564463
  3. https://www.nme.com/news/music/billie-eilish-announces-new-music-everything-wanted-released-2566505
  4. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hk3KPa6zWzo
  5. https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/billie-eilish-everything-i-wanted-911797/
  6. https://www.seventeen.com/celebrity/music/a29798191/billie-eilish-everything-i-wanted-finneas/
  7. https://twitter.com/Jason_FineArt/status/1193997208900841472
  8. https://www.instagram.com/p/B7skq8TJXOx/?igshid=1tysfpz0k0trg

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Artists
Billie Eilish
Tracks
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Japanese Edition
come out and playWHEN I WAS OLDER
French Re-Release / Deluxe Edition / Target Edition
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Tours
When We All Fall Asleep, World TourWhere Do We Go? World Tour
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